Tonight I sit alone again

It’s always there

The emptiness

The loneliness

That always brings despair

Wanting not to feel

Wanting not to breathe

All thats left is loneliness

And it’s all to real




I can’t feel

I can’t breathe

I’m lost

Caught up in those memories

That haunt me night and day.

The urge just too intense

How do I resist the urge?

Why won’t the demons in my past leave me be?

All I want is a little peace

Is that too much to ask?



Well I’ve been holding back from posting since I first set up WordPress due to nerves but now I think it’s time.

Last week my therapist told me she’s leaving in 3 weeks and to be truthful it’s knock me for 6. I don’t know what to do or think. I feel abandoned all over again. She’s been the first therapist that I’ve actually been able to connect with and trust her enough to actually tell things to. But now I’m faced with losing her and I’m scared. I just feel like giving up . Hope is not shinning on today.